This week was my little sister's birthday, so I didn't actually get to watch this when it aired. Mattie watched it first, and so did a few other people. I was warned that this was a hard episode to watch. Guys…this was a really hard episode to watch. I really don't know how to cope with what happened, other than to turn to Tumblr and whatnot. That site understands the feels that just happened.

Boy, did feels happen. All of season 9 lead up to this very moment; the final confrontation with Metatron. With Gadreel on their side, things were looking up. Dean, however, decided to slice Gadreel with the First Blade and sent the angel fleeing. Cas and Sam thought it best if Dean and the Blade were separated, so Dean got locked away while his little brother and the angel of the Lord went to find Gadreel and make things 'right'. Cas helps to heal him, while weakening himself further. The stolen grace is making him a time bomb, but he wants to do what's right. Meanwhile, Dean's not having any of this being locked up crap. He summons Crowley and has the King of Hell help him get to the Blade. As it turns out, the First Blade and Mark of Cain are making him crave murder. Dean's behavior even has Crowley intrigued, especially since it might benefit him later.

Metatron decides that it's time to make himself known to the humans, and what a better way to do that than by performing 'miracles'. Bringing people back from 'death', healing the sick, and even turning water into bourbon. Truly, he is the new Messiah, right? That's what he's trying to convince everyone of, anyway and people are totally buying into it. His actions go viral, and with the help of Crowley, Dean finds a lead on Metatron's whereabouts. But, being buddies with the King of Hell only goes so far. When Sam shows up, that's Crowley's cue to leave the brothers. Dean's got the First Blade and a vendetta to carry out, and Sam just wants an end to all this. At least Castiel and Gadreel are fine, right?

The angels do manage to make it to Heaven, only to be locked in prison, while Metatron's away. This does not set well with Gadreel at all. Having been locked in here for centuries, Gadreel is not about to be do it all over again. He sacrifices himself so that Castiel can be free and put an end to Metatron's reign. With the help of Hannah, Castiel gets to Metatron's room and searches for the angel tablet. Metatron is busy finally confronting Dean, though. And winning. The fight's not pretty and despite Dean being all powerful with the First Blade, Metatron has god-like power and uses it. The scribe stabs Dean just as Sam shows up to the scene. Soon after, vanishing to confront Castiel; the angel tablet shattered in pieces on the floor. Dean dies in Sam's arms. Castiel tricks Metatron into spilling all his lies and plans in front of all the angels, then spares his life, locking him in the prison where he can't hurt anyone.

With Dean's lifeless body left in his own room, Sam goes to summon Crowley. To make a deal; save his older brother. Crowley, however, is busy having a little chat with Dean, placing the First Blade, into his hand and telling him that what he's feeling isn't death, but a new life. We're left with Dean opening his eyes to find them all black…

I have to say, this really got me on so many levels. Still, the finale ends with Sam willing to do anything to save his brother (in contrast to the start of the season and his declaration to do otherwise) and Cas wanting to just be an angel, not a leader. Crowley, of course, will always be Crowley. He's the most lovable demon there is, and Dean? Well, he's a demon now himself. They've done a wonderful job for setting up season 10, and I cannot wait until the fall to see just what happens. 

Shae's Take
Just when you thought it was safe to not have feels. Things get feel-y. Is that even a word? No, no it's not. But it should be! This week,the Winchester's meet with Castiel, again, due to some…very…interesting happenings. Angels are exploding themselves and killing other angels in the name of Castiel. Only, this is news to Cas and his organization because he had no idea this was going on. Dean is in no mood for any of this, and he may just get a bit too rough and a little to…blade happy when it comes to getting answers.

For once Crowley is staying out of it. Which is fair since he did just release his son into the current time line, against the Winchester's wishes. Abaddon is kind of dead, so he does have his hands full trying to reclaim and rebuild his kingdom. As for the angels? With their already dwindling numbers, angels killing angels has to end, right? Hopefully! These angels are doing anything they can to kill those on Metraton's side. As it is, Cas is working to try and find a peaceful way to end this war. Seems he's had enough of this violence. 

Remember that little reaper, named Tess? Dean does. Turn's out she's on Castiel's side, or is she? Dean interrogates her…and it turns out she was planning to suicide bomb herself in the name of Castiel. All because there is no heaven, no hope, and nothing to live for. That seems to be the general gist of why these angels want to do what they've been doing. Well, that and Metatron has been recruiting them to do so. Tricking them into doing just that. As it turns out, Gadreel had been personally getting these angels, and apparently reapers, to join Metatron's cause. When Gadreel finally finds out what Metatron has been planning he does the best thing he could ever do…

He goes to the Winchesters and Castiel. Offering to join their side. Which would be fine, if Dean wasn't on some blood thirsty rampage, taking control of the situation.

Well, Tuesday offers the season finale…thankfully we have a season 10, but really? With one show to go, and so many ends to tie up, what's going to happen!?

Okay, again, I've missed a few reviews and I greatly apologize. 

This week, Crowley gets a special visit from a certain Knight of Hell he's been hunting. Abaddon is there to offer him a deal; help her kill the Winchesters' before they can betray them both, then they can focus on killing each other. To sweeten the deal, she brings in Crowley's son. Still filled with human emotions, Crowley isn't willing to watch Gavin be tortured, so he does, reluctantly, agree to help her. Of course, he tips the boys off first.

Before that, however, Sam and Dean are called in by Castiel to help him get information out of an Angel that supposedly was Metatron's "second in command." As it turns out, he was up for some position since Metatron was hand picking Angels for a secret mission. Or perhaps he's still on his plan for only letting a small handful of them in. Either way, the Angel in question didn't make the cut and was merely trying to sound cooler than he was in front of his brethren. Sam and Dean play on his inadequacies and find out that there is a portal to Heaven, only it's constantly moving. With this information, Castiel sets out to meet with Gadreel. Cas has decided to try and end this as peacefully as possible, in the hopes that they can put an end to this Angel on Angel violence. While he does that, Sam and Dean head off to meet Crowley, who is kind enough to tip them off on Abaddon's plan.

Never trust a Knight of Hell, because Abaddon shoots Crowley; a devil's trap carved into the bullet keeps him from being able to move, really. Dean sends Sam to the basement on some goosechase, while he goes to meet Crowley with the First Blade. It's here we see the true power it possesses. Abaddon almost has the upper hand, but Dean powers through. The blade seems to be changing him, as Sam later points out, and that is not a good thing. In the end, Abaddon is killed, and Sam stumbles upon the scene of Dean stabbing Abaddon repeatedly. They decide not to kill Crowley, but they are going to send his son back. Over the course of the episode, the two were finally forming a bond. Before they can find a way to send him back, Crowley wants to say goodbye. Only, to take Gavin and disappear, leaving the boy somewhere far from the Winchester's.

With Dean out of it, Sam worried, and Cas fighting Metatron, Crowley is the least of their worries. And where is Gabriel!? I refuse to believe he really is dead. I think he's alive and I think Metatron is controlling him. After all, our lovable trickster can't truly be dead! 

Okay, as promised here is Mattie's reviews for the last two episodes!